WARNING: Sexual Content; Disturbing Content

The first thing I remember is being with a couple friends and a couple young girls.  I was naked.  I picked up one of the girls with a bear-hug, but then held her out in the air at arm’s length; she was petite, blond, and seemed to be right around 20 years old.  I said something like “Ohhh you’re sooo cute, I really wanna fuck you! Whaddya say?”  It obviously in retrospect makes me cringe; in that moment it seemed like it was intended and received as a purely well-intended compliment, as the girls just looked at each other and giggled, acted shy about it, then just politely declined.  One of my friends who was there observing this was my buddy J. who expressed some sense of imbalance in the exchange, saying that effectively she got a free look at my stuff, but I didn’t get to see hers.  So to him it was like she got some benefit that I didn’t also get to enjoy in a reciprocal way.  Then suddenly I was at my tutoring client’s house, where it was like I had been house-sitting  and baby-sitting their middle daughter while the rest of the family had been away for a weekend, out camping or whatnot.  Then it occurred to me that one of the girls I had ‘made a pass’ on earlier was actually this middle daughter, Suzie, who was actually in 2nd grade.  So that gave me this idea like ohhh shit, I had unbeknownst messed around inappropriately and crossed a serious line with a girl who was way too young. 

So I was just feeling guilt and confusion in that moment; it was inappropriate conduct that maybe, at best, could have been laughed-off and forgotten about in one particular context, but at worst, a potentially-scarring, psychological trauma for a prepubescent girl to suffer being overtly sexualized.  Suddenly then the family arrived home from their trip, and began unpacking the car.  It became clear from mom’s tone/demeanor that something was not alright, but about which I had no idea — I figured it was some argument or disagreement that had soured the mood, not been resolved.  I asked the mom if she was ok; she said ‘yeah’ in a way that seemed like it was truthful in the ‘global’ sense, like nothing was terrible on a major level, but indeed there was something lingering in her mind that was causing her to not be entirely present and feeling positive.  So while they were putting things into drawers, getting organized, etc, I suddenly saw a video montage of young Suzie growing up, going into her high school years, demonstrating some behaviors that seemed to indicate more maturity and also somewhat more aggressive attitudes, like playing soccer with more vigor, competitive spirit, etc, and there was a scene where some dude was dogging her and she told him off, turned her head sharply, flipped her hair and strutted away.  I began feeling somewhat responsible for this ‘shift’ in her behavior because of my advance on her earlier; it seemed like this event caused her to take a different life-trajectory altogether, and it was something only I was really aware of, since there apparently was no word of the incident to her folks, so they wouldn’t know they were observing her in an ‘affected’ condition.  Then I seemed to feel like I had to cover my tracks a bit, so I searched my phone for any photos of her or any young girls for that matter. I came across a picture of some girl, who maybe resembled the blond girl from the beginning, but her eyes had been blurred digitally, so the identity was ambiguous.

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This is a great example of a situation where a dream can be emotionally stressful, since the experience feels like genuine life experience, and we observe ourselves behaving in ways that are contrary to our ethics. Often these types of dreams reveal quite a bit if we have the courage to evaluate them.

In this case, I actually made a sale of physical silver on Friday 11/6, then the market made the extremely sharp decline on Monday 11/9. So let’s dissect and align the dream elements with reality.

1) I was naked and gave a ‘bear hug’ to an attractive young girl who was a bit immature. At the time immediately prior to the dream, I was bearish the market and it seemed to be in an attractive condition to make a sale, and I did actualize that belief in executing that trade. So, I acted on my beliefs, and my beliefs were thus quite obvious. Nakedness– nothing left to the imagination.

2) Whereas in reality I was anticipating price would make some continued upward progress from that high on 11/6, instead it turned down sharply. This is similar to how in the dream I made the ‘pass’ on the girl, then suddenly she became a much younger girl. Price declined which essentially took the trend back to a ‘younger’ condition.

3) Due to mom & dad being in a mild rift and with chores to do, the incident was overlooked. Then I saw the montage of Suzie growing up, exhibiting some ‘affect’ in her personality– something like ‘damaged goods’ in the popular culture phrasing. Because of the timing of my sale and the subsequent price move down, it is like I ’caused’ the damage– hence the feelings of culpability and guilt in the dream. Now I have a view on the market at the current moment (12/4), as price is rising again, as it also being like ‘damaged goods’. I would certainly not be a buyer here, and in fact look to sell physical silver again, and intend to buy puts on the SLV if/when the futures get up around the $25 area again.

4) The cover-up. Notice how price declined from making a new high on 11/9 to going below the swing low from 10/29. Most trend-traders, looking at a series of Higher-Highs-Higher-Lows, etc, would consider that as evidence of a trend-change, and then would look to short the market in anticipation of a continuation to the downside. But instead, price is working itself back up, appearing to defy gravity, acting contrary to their beliefs, etc. This is a typical phenomenon of price action in the ‘manipulation’ phase, where price will often go on to make a move back to a prior extreme, in essence squeezing those premature trend-change traders and often successfully reverse their belief in the change. This is where many traders get ‘spun around’ and insiders get accused of ‘painting the tape’ etc. You can draw your own conclusions about why this happens, with knowledge of the structure and make-up of market participants and the business model for certain players being levered to increased volume of transactions.

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